The antidote

I used to think that the right mindset, affirmation, healer, etc. could give me a life free from suffering. If I could just get it right, if I could hurry up and fix myself everything would be OK. Of course it was all on me and it was all my fault. I must be saying the affirmations wrong.

I now understand that diving head first into the deep and utter heartbreak of life is the only truly safe and sane place to be. All the things we do to try and not feel the feelings we think will destroy us usually makes things worse.

Once I found people who could sit with me in my heartbreak without trying to make it go away and taught me how to do the same for myself, my healing journey changed - I learned to sit with hard things, to let them rip through me, and to hold myself through it. I'm still learning and it’s still not easy but I think we all have a lot more medicine within us than we realize... medicine that's specifically for us when we look towards our pain rather than away. The antidote usually grows next to the poison, right?